Expectations

When I cry,
I cry silent tears.
Letting go of my fears
Where no one hears.
And I am not to be heard
Or disturbed.
And no words
Can describe
The pain and stress buried in my eyes
But I try and try
To hide
The stress by
Acting like an adult
But I cry the tears of a child
Who's not equipped to handle the wild
Ways of the world
How am I supposed to act like a woman but I feel like a girl?
With adult decisions that swirl
Inside my brain day and night
But the main one,
Fight or flight?
And honestly I love to fly
So high above,
Where no one could see me cry