Pain

It's my number one addiction.
It's like I'm drawn to it.
I guess that's why I was so in love with you.
I guess that's why with you of all the things I went through it.
I guess I should to those people.
The people who told me not do it.
But I couldn't help it.
It's pain I'm always choosing.

Fear

Fear
It's what holds all our pain
What reminds me of fear
is when I'm looking at the rain
These raindrops they remind me of tears
and then I remember my greatest fears

Death

Death, it's a way of life.
It's what makes people go home and cry.
It's what makes you sit in a corner and never try.
So giving you permission to kill me, doesn't mean I'm scared to live
I'm just not afraid to die.
Because I've cried all my tears.
I've conquered all fears.
But I don't trust no one, especially my peers.
Because they can make you die inside.
So your dead, but your breathing, your alive.
But something happened to me and my soul has been revived.
Now, I feel like I'll live forever.
So you can't hurt me no more. Not now. not then, not ever.
So you can talk but I'm life so it's only power your giving.
So even when I die., through my words I'll be living.

Hopeless Fantasies

Love is a fantasy. A state of mind.
Love is a hopeless dream. We can search but never find.
Heartbreak is reality. But something we don't want to believe in.
It feels horrible. You wanna shut down like you're over, the end.
I used to believe in love. I thought all the stories were true.
Until I met heartbreak. Now, all those words are fake especially "I love you"
So if you don't understand, because you're in love or whatever you call that stupid fantasy.
Wait until you meet heartbreak. That's the day you'll listen to me.

Flames

As the candle burns, it reminds me of her. How the fire reminds me of her. How she was so wild and untamed. If too untamed, she can do great damage then needed. But she was so gentle like single teardrops can destroy her. As I sit here watching her candle burn, I can only think of her. How her warmth kept us all together. How she was good for and at so many things. As I watch this candle burn for her, it reminds me of her. I miss her. But then I come to the sudden realization. All candles and flames have to burn out sometimes.

The unspoken

I waited too long. There was stuff I need to get out of my mind. Maybe that I love you or you're my one of a kind. But I guess you weren't ready. But I still waited too long and missed my opportunity. Now, she's got you and you're gone forever. And if I didn't leave those words unspoken, me and you would be together.

Heart break

When I was little I had something taken from me, stolen. From the boy who thought that none of it mattered.
Not only did he take that, he took my heart. He slammed it to the ground. Broken glass, shattered.
I feel like a baseball. Love is the pitcher. And you're the batter.
I feel tore up, broken down. I'm tattered.
I went to the emergency room and now I'm healed.
I never again will let you confuse from what you did and what is real
I'm trying let go of everything especially what I feel
I'm now shutting everyone out because of you. My heart made of steel.

Love

Love is like the ocean. It tosses and turns and when your weak throws you around. You could have perfect balance, but one wrong move and drowned. You can get caught on something and you're sinking. You're going down. In the middle of the sea of love, there's no life to be found.
Just keep on swimming, there's got to be something near. Don't waste your time crying, don't even shed a tear. See, look it your finally here. But what happens if love is your greatest fear?