How do you love?

Wayne says you don't know how to love
How do you?
They make it sound so easy
Don't let them fool you
Blood, sweat, and tears
go into something like that
Let your guard down once
You can get shot into the back
Right through your heart
I guess that's I have a black hole
We used to one
Then you left, and you took my soul
I'm still reaching for you
but my arms can't reach
I guess I learned my lesson
but they say I still need to be teached
I guess you can call me a dropout then
Cause I'm done with this love thing
Like B.O.B
I'm trying not to fall
But I had to say it
I would love you most of all
I don't dream
of wedding gowns and diamonds rings
Those are more like nightmares
If I tell someone, they'll come true
But don't worry about it
There's still hope for you
So live on
Find love and happiness
And remember to never regret

Broke the point

We all know everyone has a breaking point
but what happens when it's been broken
By her actions
and the words I left unspoken
I thought forgiveness is key
in the game of love because you were my token
But what you said made me want to lay down
to never be awoken
You broke my breaking point
what is there left to say
I've got pretend like I'm happy
so people think I'm okay
I've got to not cry
every time I see your face everyday
This is really stressing me out
I just want to run away
But I can't
and you know why
Since I can't cry when I see you
I go home and cry
I can't trust anyone because of you
so all I hear is lie after lie
You cast a spell on me
that I can't deny
that I love you
So why even try?

Choosing

Since when does a person have to choose between love
and the truest friend they ever had.
One wants to hurt themself
and the other one is mad
because I care so much
because I'm loyal to that person
I may look calm
but in my mind, I'm screaming and yelling and cursing
and I just wanna have peace
I just want them to be friends
I want them to get along
I want this hatred to end
But no
the fighting continues, it goes on and on
It replays in my head
like a never ending song
It's stressing me out
It's making me sad
Tell me,
Since when does person have to choose between love
and the truest friend they ever had

Confusion

Its the second worst feeling
of them all
The first is when I'm in love
I fall
But confusion leaves me helpless
like I'm a little kid
The emotions spinning in my head
and I try and try to get rid
That's why I hate confusion
There's so many other emotions involved
But still the first worst feeling is in love
when I fall.

Trust

Someone tell me what it is.
Tell me what it means.
Can you really trust a person?
Because some people aren't always as they seem.
I pored my heart out to you
I promised I would never lie.
But you never believe me
Leaving tears in my eyes
And to believe that stuff
I would never do
It really makes me wonder
Why I ever trusted you
All trust ever brought was pain
And my depression worsened
So tell me
Why should I trust a person?

Life

Life
it means you're breathing
Living
it means something different
but what's the reason?
Shouldn't they be the same
since they're part of the same word
You probably think they are
becuase it's something you heard
Well, they're not
Living means you're happy and having fun
You've gotten everything you wanted
Your day in the sun
Well, your sun is going down
and it's almost night
and you're about to go from knowing what living is
to the meaning of life

Pain

It's my number one addiction.
It's like I'm drawn to it.
I guess that's why I was so in love with you.
I guess that's why with you of all the things I went through it.
I guess I should to those people.
The people who told me not do it.
But I couldn't help it.
It's pain I'm always choosing.

Fear

Fear
It's what holds all our pain
What reminds me of fear
is when I'm looking at the rain
These raindrops they remind me of tears
and then I remember my greatest fears

Death

Death, it's a way of life.
It's what makes people go home and cry.
It's what makes you sit in a corner and never try.
So giving you permission to kill me, doesn't mean I'm scared to live
I'm just not afraid to die.
Because I've cried all my tears.
I've conquered all fears.
But I don't trust no one, especially my peers.
Because they can make you die inside.
So your dead, but your breathing, your alive.
But something happened to me and my soul has been revived.
Now, I feel like I'll live forever.
So you can't hurt me no more. Not now. not then, not ever.
So you can talk but I'm life so it's only power your giving.
So even when I die., through my words I'll be living.

Hopeless Fantasies

Love is a fantasy. A state of mind.
Love is a hopeless dream. We can search but never find.
Heartbreak is reality. But something we don't want to believe in.
It feels horrible. You wanna shut down like you're over, the end.
I used to believe in love. I thought all the stories were true.
Until I met heartbreak. Now, all those words are fake especially "I love you"
So if you don't understand, because you're in love or whatever you call that stupid fantasy.
Wait until you meet heartbreak. That's the day you'll listen to me.

Flames

As the candle burns, it reminds me of her. How the fire reminds me of her. How she was so wild and untamed. If too untamed, she can do great damage then needed. But she was so gentle like single teardrops can destroy her. As I sit here watching her candle burn, I can only think of her. How her warmth kept us all together. How she was good for and at so many things. As I watch this candle burn for her, it reminds me of her. I miss her. But then I come to the sudden realization. All candles and flames have to burn out sometimes.

The unspoken

I waited too long. There was stuff I need to get out of my mind. Maybe that I love you or you're my one of a kind. But I guess you weren't ready. But I still waited too long and missed my opportunity. Now, she's got you and you're gone forever. And if I didn't leave those words unspoken, me and you would be together.

Heart break

When I was little I had something taken from me, stolen. From the boy who thought that none of it mattered.
Not only did he take that, he took my heart. He slammed it to the ground. Broken glass, shattered.
I feel like a baseball. Love is the pitcher. And you're the batter.
I feel tore up, broken down. I'm tattered.
I went to the emergency room and now I'm healed.
I never again will let you confuse from what you did and what is real
I'm trying let go of everything especially what I feel
I'm now shutting everyone out because of you. My heart made of steel.

Love

Love is like the ocean. It tosses and turns and when your weak throws you around. You could have perfect balance, but one wrong move and drowned. You can get caught on something and you're sinking. You're going down. In the middle of the sea of love, there's no life to be found.
Just keep on swimming, there's got to be something near. Don't waste your time crying, don't even shed a tear. See, look it your finally here. But what happens if love is your greatest fear?